*_* Love

Once upon a time, a ger gone missing for months.

Leaving just friends who miss her much but yet cant manaage to find her.

Leaving nothing behind not even a simple contact.

Ger will nv forget the day:

• The afternoon where the 5 of them sit n cry in a cramp n small room.
• The promise where they wil stay strong, will not drop tears, but nv did they manage to control. In the chalet room they cried.
• the sms sent to her telling her how much they care but yet the ger refuse to replied.

The ger promise that she will go on but yet stop when everything began to be smooth for her.

Dissapoint her mentor, someone who she look upon to, someone who she’s afraid when she did something wrong, someone like a dad, someone who once said that he will help till she achieve.

Just when she tot she dun mind abt her lost n missing, infect she does. Memories sweep passed her, she cant forget the memories she had with them.The courage to return to them.

what did the ger done to make her have so much friends that stand beside her. During the days she’s not around she done feel good too. Till today, she’s happy that she return. It seems like things have change but infect never. 

Simple but yet happy. Yesterday is the first night i went out with them… keke…. always i am not able to leave that circle Yesterday… there r nine people… Ah hao, kelvin yeo, Kun you, Finn, Jensen, Zhi Xing, Brian, Hanxiang and me. Too bad Melissa went back or else it would be more fun. Its just a simple birthday dinner but yet i enjoy myself. Ha.. i did something, well i promise them that i will stop smoking… Imagine a table of 9 with only 2 smoker. On my way home, in Brian car, i tot of a lot of things. Its really been very long since i am so happy. While we are having our supper, we saw a lot of  youngster coming out of the pub, drunk. Its just like seeing my own reflection. In the past i would go all out and drink. Drink till i am totally drunk, and i will smoke till i go mad. In the past i also enjoy myself, but its only that now is more simple but yet as rewarding. While sitting in Brian car i feel like asking Brian and Hanxiang : Will your stay long forever at that place? but i never have the courage to ask. I tot of the past, i remember we use to go ktv with Kelvin but its with another group of people. That time there’s still Eeling, Clive, Kelvin lun, Andy. But now where are they? Due to some reason they cant join us now.Sometimes i really curious,  people get so positive when they come and promise to fight all out. Y in the end lost. I wonder if the group of us yeserday will we stay forever.  it will be so wonderfull when all our us strive and work towards our goal together. At night , i call and talk to Ah Hao. After talking then did i realised that i need to change in certain way. But guys, this is wat i told ah hao… now i tell u guys…

To: mummy,sandee,samantha,melissa,kelvin yeo,brian,hanxiang,desmond,jensen,                          ah hao,arnold,zhongzhen,zhixiong,ferlice,zixing

I really need all of your help and support.First i have decided to jump out and mix w u guys, i hope u guys will re-accept me. Second i need all of you guys to help me get my ed… cos i want to go 14… Lastly, i wan to work at the same pace with all of you.

I LOVE U GUYS LOT

A lovely song send to me from Wayne.

~ Till the end ~

All this precious moment, with you by my side, must be gift from heaven, it’s holding me all night.

I don’t know how i found you, i am thankfull that i have.That there i had a live so true, to hold to keep to share.

In my heart, i could no longer hold inside, all of the love i used to hide, i will always be, be you untill the very end.

In this world, there will be no place that preferred be. You are my life, my soul, my ger.

You threw it all, i know you come to see that you’re the one till the end.

This few weeks i have been going through a lot of stree due to sch work. Now i am ok le… out to all my friends, dun worried must for me. I am alrite now… infect after my main exams i am perfectly alrite le.

Another group of friends

Thanks to all of you. I know you guys have been supporting me 100%. I hope we can grow and walk together till the very end. I may tend to be unstable at times but not to worried, i will still be strong. I never forget the happy times together.

"the joke n package made on bus with kelvin yeo.

the french fries(king, queen ,single) i had with aH hao

The grouping i had with Brian with another Mr Am

That odd night where Zhong Zhen receiced a call from me~

There are many more, i hope we will hold on to each other and walk together. We are all working towards one goal. I may be slow now, but i know all of you will help me faster my pace and get going together. I never forget all of you… All the memories we had. Those are something money can’t buy. Cos its our individual memory where no one can robbed it away…

I love you guys… 

Today was one of my most upset days ba. Haven been sleeping for the whole nite due to project. Morning took a cab to my childcare,by the time i reach there then i realised that they have all gone. Thats my very last cash i got. Wasted in the end. In the evening, i left with peanuts. Therefore i walk my way home. From toa payoh all the way till bendemeer. If i were to take bus home, i will reach within 20 mins. But i spent almost 2 hours to walk home. As i am walking i start to think. Actually i might prefer the life of from the past. In the past, i lead a life blur, unclear and forever playful. At that point of time i have a lot of friends. We tend to smoke, drink, and do otherthings together. I miss the kind of shit life i have. Compared to now, although my view becomer clearer but i lost all my dear friends. Now the only gruop i really have are my classmates and friends from …. But somehow or rather, i will only have friends when i go …. cos everyone will be station there. But when i am out of there, no one really cares. Izzi really because of business then we have the friendship? When i am walking i sms 2 person. The first one is Kun You. After so many years Kun You haven change a bit. Days before i join i also have no money therefore i walk home. When i call him , hopefully someone will show me some care but to my surprise he nv care. So as usual today i tot he will call me when i sms him but he only bother to ask me where am i . When i tell him i lost my way n tell him the road, he ask me to call smq and ask. Guys out there u may think theres nothing wrong. But i just dun like the hack care attitude. I need friends that care not cos of business only. The second one is Han Xiang. He call me and chat a while. Thanks to him, at least i dont feel so dishearted. But looking back i really wish to lead a life from my past. At least i will feel better, feel recognize. While talking to Hanxing, i really feel like crying out. Who on earth will really be there for me? In the past i have shimin and sharon. When i feel like crying , i would hug them so tighly and cry. But today, who can really offer me a hug to really cry on. I am really upset this few days. Might be too stress i think.

Going to leave my childcare soon. Kind of miss the children there. While on my way hm, i have this urge to have a baby. Which is why out of sudden wan to look for a guy. Of so many years i only love 2 guys deeply. I regreted why am i so playfull in the past. I never cherish my relationship. Infect deep in my heart i really hope to stick to one guy then happily married. It sounds stupid but i am okie w that. I really hope to settle down w you. Who’s that you, dun tell you. But i hope to understand more then think about it. I dun want to risk anything. What i wan is simple. Just a shoulder to cry on. Someone to hug, someone to talk to. Some one that care and someone that concern. It may be simple but not easy. Cos overall is still the feeling that counts. U may like me,you may love me but i might not like u at all. I dun believe that things can be pei yang. I only know the feeling that develop. Is it very selfish of me?

Finally after some time, now i felt lonely. Dun really know wat i wan. But dun get the wrong idea. I am doing fine but sometime, like my Miss Peh, we r so lonely. Hmm… How nice it would be when a guy get nice to you. Hmm.. will my luv one appear… Will he be able to accept my everything. Its hard to find someone who can accept. Still searhing for it. Y am i writing this?? shit!! i must be mad, to desprate for a guy to come in to my life.

Can someone tell me what are friends for…

It is really sad when…

a friend tell u " Please dun COPY "

your close friend treat u like rubbish

u finally realised that there is no one when u need someone

But it is really happy when….

Someone try to find time for u even when there are real busy

u know there is this group of friends forever will stand by u

2 Nov

How sweet of u guys…..

Thanks for celebrating my birthday with me. Although just few days ago something sway appen. But all of u really brighten up my day. For my lovely classmates…. Thank u so much for the ‘HONG BAO’…. I am so touch…. For all my darlings who attended my party….. LOve u guys so much…. All of u r so busy but yet yr manage to find some time for me.I do enjoy myself a lot that day. That day may cost a bomb but i think is worth it. LOve all of u guys….

Once upon a time, there was an Island
where all
the feelings lived:

Happiness, Sorrow, Knowledge etc, including
Love. One day it was announced to the feelings
that the island would sink.

So all repaired their own boats and left. Love was
the only one who stayed. Love wanted to
persevere until the last possible moment. When
the island was almost sinking, Love decides to
ask for help.

Richness was passing by in a great boat. Love
said "Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can’t. There is a lot of
gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here
for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was passing by
in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I
can’t help you Love. You are all wet and might
damage my boat", Vanity answered.

Sorrow was close by so Love asked for
help, "Sorrow, let me go with you." But Sorrow
said, "Oh…..Love, I am so sad that I need to be
myself!" "

Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so
happy that she did not even hear when Love
called her!

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will
take you." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed
and overjoyed that he even forgets to ask the
elder her name.

When they arrived on a dry land, the Love asked
Knowledge, another elder, "Who helped me?" "It
was Time," Knowledge answered.

Time?" asked Love "But why did Time help me?
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and
answered, "because only time is capable of
understanding how great love is"

Love is a wonderful feeling and most of us are
either in love or secretly admire somebody. But
there is one thing about love. It needs time to
grow, to mature and to last forever. Time teaches
us many things about the other person. Just think
of your parents, your siblings. You know that they
have faults yet you love them. This is the kind of
unconditional love you must be able to give to that
somebody special in your life.

The main requisite for love is that one must be
ready for it. Most of us feel that once we are in
college, we must have boyfriend/girlfriend or there
is something wrong with us. But this isn’t love; it’s
toeing the line. This is also the main reason why
many of us fall in and out of love frequently.

Love requires one to be strong and resilient
because there will always be heartaches and one
must be ready for them all, this one must be
emotionally mature. Moreover, getting attracted to
a good looking guy/gal and then looking out for a
better looking one is just fooling around and never
be mistaken for love.

Over time, you begin understanding each other for
what you really are not the fancy dresses and
costly gifts, but the real person. The person who
will accept you with all your faults and weaknesses
truly loves you. This understanding takes time.
Love is a wonderful emotion but, like good wine, it
needs to mature. It must weather many a storm
before it becomes strong enough to last a lifetime
and more.

…Love may be wonderfull BUT love also hurt… I may be sorry for what happen. I may regret my decision. But i think that will be the best for us. We are both just inmature to handle relationship. Love is not possessing someone. Love is also not asking for more. Love is accepting the good and bad of the other party. This is the point which both of us cannot face it. Neither of us wish to accept both the good and bad. We may have tried but it does not work out. We may know the problem but no one cares. Only time understand love. But we were too rush and we neglect time. Now only time can heal the hurt in us.